FulLfiLmenT

do i talk too much?

am i doing badly?

what do i really care about?

where am i?

tHIs i lOVE

And now I don't know why
She wouldn't say goodbye
But then it seems that I
Had seen it in her eyes

And it might not be wise
I'd still have to try
With all the love
I have inside
I can't deny

I just can't let it die
Cause her heart's just like mine
And she holds her pain inside

So if you ask me why
She wouldn't say goodbye
I know somewhere inside

There is a special light
Still shining bright
And even on the darkest night
She can't deny

So if she's somewhere near me
I hope to God she hears me
There's no one else
Could ever make me feel
I'm so alive
I hoped she'd never leave me
Please God you must believe me
I've searched the universe
And found myself
Within' her eyes

No matter how I try
They say it's all a lie
So what's the use of my confessions to a crime
Of passions that won't die
In my heart

So if she's somewhere near me
I hope to God she hears me
There's no one else
Could ever make me feel
I'm so alive

I hoped she'd never leave me
Please God you must believe me
I've searched the universe
And found myself
Within' her eyes

So if she's somewhere near me
I hope to God she hears me
There's no one else
Could ever make me feel
I'm so alive

I hoped she'd never leave me
Please God you must believe me
I've searched the universe
And found myself
Within' her eyes

So now I don't know why
She wouldn't say goodbye
It just might be that I
Had seen it in her eyes
And now it seems that I
Gave up my ghost of pride
I'll never say goodbye

sLums

我滿喜歡上英文課的 (不過很明顯的跟我適不適應老師有很大的關聯)

Mark的英文課常常帶給我的

不只是英文

讓我定期的接受與自己雷同的圈圈大相逕庭的刺激和思考

有點像是以前在修教育學程的課

接觸的總是和自己本科的很不相同

看到不同的思考慣性    不同的價值分析

發現自己意外的缺點    意外的優點

了解原來自己會對什麼有興趣   有疑問  有好奇  有離譜無知

Mark的英文課大概就是這樣的感覺吧

今天讓我忍不住想整理的一些點

• 生活的方向: 當我們正忍不住的忙於工作，驕傲於繁忙，追求無邊界的成就與欲望，有沒有遺忘了一些根本？
• 老齡化的人口分布問題: 一方面是實際社會如何面對，一方面是這有所謂的根本解法嗎?
• 世界的兩極化: 我們是不是正在那些國家的M字的一邊呢?

rEView, aGaIN

vocabulary, again:

agnostic:
atheistic:
dictator:
dictatorship:
eccentrics:
legendary:
invincibility:
fluorescent:
cockpit:
fuselage:
fin:
strain:
crew:


hu~ a little bit tired. let me finished them next time.

sKYdiVINg

its my first time to go to skydiving. and i did the second time after i'd have landed successfully and found myself loving skydiving pretty much. i didnt buy the video package for the 2nd jump, because it did cost a lot!

anyway, i love skydiving and my charming instructor Alex!

poINTs

這杯葡萄酒

讓什麼都沉沉落下

bOn VAyagE

最近在想旅遊這件事與我

有人喜歡跟團
因為
似乎能最有經濟效應的玩到當地的重點
似乎不想(能)花太多時間做功課

有人喜歡自助
因為
似乎能自由的把時間和錢花在自己想花的重點
似乎能享受不確定的刺激
似乎能掌握彈性

到目前  我依舊屬於後者

並不是我多會做功課
並不是我多熱愛冒險
更不是我多有時間
更不是我多有金

回想

曼谷
重點是  按摩

浙江 + 香港

重點是  小克  和學術訪問

巴黎
重點就是   巴黎  哥德教堂  和第一次自助

香港
重點是  第一次的國外同學會

東京
重點是  休息

崑山 + 上海
重點是  體驗所謂的出差


對我來說
旅行的品質並不是一定要玩到多少重點

也許是
    感受不同樣風味的世界
    調劑現實的生活
    挑戰自己感受刺激和未定的年輕
 


接下來.........我的世界地圖又會如何進化呢?

SuDDEN dEAth

監牢

花香

綠色草原



彈性
享受
揮霍

如果不該得到
就不該拿

有種不屬於的味道

nINjA

都是
一瞬間

ROse WitHOUt thORn

i just know

it is not so important at all

everything will die out

push me to free me

bite me to sober me up

where is the fresh air

where is the garden of freedom

where is it

arResT

i thought of you
and i m thinking of you still


the scene the situation the atmospheres .......


the event reminded the dear you




dear dreammaker,
you know what, this evening at 18:10 maybe, one colleague of mine fell down suddenly. he'd got epilepsy and after couple minutes he had consciousness. i cant stop worrying until i saw he's breathing and conscious. i knew for epilepsy, if it was epilepsy, i cant do many things but keep watching and observing patient's vital characters. in the end, he went on ambulance to the hospital with medical specialists. 


i wish you didnt suffer lots of pain at that time.
im wondering whether the story would be different if we knew every step clearly to save you.


anyway, i miss you, my dear friend.

rECAp

BigO essense :

O(1) : step ~ constant, constantly
O(N) : step ~ n, linearly
O( f(N) ): step ~ f(n), function-dependently

dAY aftER DAy

the puzzle is not so hard

the fate is not so tied up by the stars

how come does your dream become so far away

away from the destiny you had thought it would may

she breathes hard

shes struggled 

shes fighting 

tired

imPLicity

what we've wanted to find is the intrinsic behaviours behind thee scene. the characteristics should be robust,  invariant and true. I'm convinced that this is the simple and efficient way to know the world, including complex behaviours of human beings.

points of the paper :

• activities and communication
• 'differential'-like clustering tech
• X-mean seems popular: 
• doesn't specify the k clusters in advance
• recursive based upon Bayesian Information Criterion
• dimensionality reduction applied
• distant function of binaries
• tempt to hide this secondary url and the corresponding communication

points enlightened :

• hierarchical ability of algorithm
• the high accuracy with a low false positive results were got because stricter conditions are considered  and the target is more focused
• denoising mechanism 

jaDEd

要花多少時間

認識   了解   確定呢

還是不可能確定呢

還是不可能理解呢

還是根本不需要知道呢

你背著我

披荊斬棘

我幼稚的哇哇亂叫

胡亂指揮著

你終於回頭問我

你是不是也會累

AdJActive

quick review:

smoggy

spacious: opposite to crowded
humid / humidity
continent : Asia, Africa, Europe, Australia, Antarctica, Eurasia, North-America, South-America, Oceania
antique(s)
artifact(s)
souvenir
attractions
cherry blossom
hot spring : go for a hot spring / take a hot spring
district : area
stadium
mansion
dustpan

beTTER

suddenly feel really bad

that burst into tears

distorted thought, mind, and world,

dislike the wound

you shouldnt have said your dream out loudly.

eQuiLIbriuM

很容易受到影響

平衡有分兩種

穩定平衡 和 不穩定平衡

我正站在那端點

岌岌可危

戰戰兢兢

FlaVor

那圖騰是 盾

你告訴我  它象徵著守護

你說謊

shELTer

the problem is that i havent reconcile it