DIsAPpeAreD

In the end, i still need to come back.

the feeling of being insecure, doubtful, hollow, stressed says everything.

It's not i don't know what i wanna do.

It is that i don't dare to face the fact i'm afraid.

i have to admit. i miss the time when i really feel comfortable, confident, and free there.

the confidence wasn't about being so strong.

it was the feeling that i kept moving by stepping out the comfort zone again and again and naturally felt confident of yourself and free mentally.

i miss it and i need it so much.

there, i have nothing to lose.

here, i have everything to lose.

there, i don't care about anything or anyone else but me.

here, my heart is locked down to the loved ones and constantly worried and fear.

at the same time, i am constrained to feel myself, talk to myself, care of myself and do something for myself.