whERe am I

again and again 

the same problem again and again

how many times 

the blast 

the black

the noise 

the tiredness 

it shouts and cries

i can grasp nothing 

the fear 

it's all about fears 

it's all about losing the love

love has been replaced with the longing for being recognised. 

drowning

drowning 

imagine to slip out from the knife wound on the back

leave it 

give it up

changing

again and again