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有些記憶不堪回首

如果硬說會影響現在和未來

會不會太過矯情做作




只是那時候我真的沒想多

因為那就是那時候的我

lEaVinG

i am not sure what i want indeed, neither work nor relationship, even my own life style.
everything now seems perfect, but actually i never use the word "perfect" at all.

i sort of envy my english teacher, Mark. he looks happy and enjoys his life, although i were not himself. No matter what, i am sure that i have wanted to become the persons who know their ways clearly. One may say that only understanding what they want and whom the are is not workable, because success is affected by many other things. yap. but the point is without the yearning for something important in your life, you're lost. no, not you, i've been pointing to myself.

i've been trying to make myself to be happy and feel satisfied in many ways. however, just like all the things happened in this world, the result seems not adequate to me. people might take me as a person with no thankful heart. yes, i think it's too true to be said.

do not take if you are not able to. im convinced that it's necessary to dig out myself, the truth of being happy, and the bravery within.

LeS mIséRablE

[Empty Chairs at Empty Table]

There's a grief that can't be spoken
There's a pain goes on and on
Empty chairs at empty tables
Now my friends are dead and gone

Here they talked of revolution
Here it was they lit the flame
Here they sang about tomorrow
And tomorrow never came.

From the table in the corner
They could see a world reborn
And they rose with voices ringing
I can hear them now!
The very words that they had sung
Became their last communion
On the lowly barricade..
At dawn.

Oh my friends my friends forgive me.

[the ghosts of those who died on the barricade appear.]

That i live and you are gone
There's a grief that can't be spoken
There's a pain goes on and on

Phantom faces at the window
Phantom shadows on the floor
Empty chairs at empty tables
Where my friends will meet no more.

[the ghosts fade away.]

Oh my friends my friends don't ask me
What your sacrifice was for
Empty chairs at empty tables
Where my friends will sing no more...

LeS mIséRablE

[Bring Him Home]

God on high
Hear my prayer
In my need
You have always been there
He is young
He's afraid
Let him rest
Heaven blessed.
Bring him home
Bring him home
Bring him home.

He's like the son i might have known
If god had granted me a son.
The summers die one by one
How soon they fly on and on
And i am old
And will be gone.

Bring him peace
Bring him joy
He is young
He is only a boy
You can take
You can give
Let him be
Let him live
If i die
Let me die
Let him live
Bring him home
Bring him home
Bring him home.

greEDy

i am still greedy and obstinate.

i have been so lost and vulnerable for one year.
i will be rehabilitated and find my centre.

fuN or FuNny

生命的樂趣


一點一點的吧


(已經把這裡搞的像是微網誌了)

dOCtoR

也許手上那條線的斷點

就是這個時刻吧

bACk

沒辦法

大家都很有夢想

大家心態都很正常

大家都知道要什麼和歸屬




也許就是那根刺

遲早



沒辦法

故事

我們的故事

好像開始過

好像結束過

好像依稀還存在

好像早已消逝許久



我們

一直都沒有辦法站的太近.....

pasS

sometimes i just think of you.

it's dark, happy, polite and relax.
also, it's always full of passion to that you love to do.


where am i?

i am so far away ....

noBoDY'S homE

Well I couldn't tell you why she felt that way,
She felt it everyday.
And I couldn't help her,
I just watched her make the same mistakes again.

What's wrong, whats wrong now?
Too many, too many problems.
Don't know where she belongs, where she belongs.
She wants to go home, but nobody's home.
That's where she lies, broken inside.
With no place to go, no place to go, to dry her eyes.
Broken inside.

Open your eyes and look outside, find the reasons why.
You've been rejected, and now you can't find what you've left behind.
Be strong, be strong now.
Too many, too many problems.
Don't know where she belongs, where she belongs.
She wants to go home, but nobody's home.
That's where she lies, broken inside.
With no place to go, no place to go, to dry her eyes.
Broken inside.

Her feelings she hides.
Her dreams she can't find.
She's losing her mind.
She's fallen behind.
She can't find her place.
She's losing her faith.
She's falling from grace.
She's all over the place!
Yeah!!

She wants to go home, but nobody's home.
That's where she lies, broken inside.
With no place to go, no place to go, to dry her eyes.
Broken inside.

She's lost inside, lost inside.oh oh
She's lost inside, lost inside.oh oh
Ohhh...

WoRSE

If it is getting worse,

There must come out some new unknown ways.

No need to hide,
No need to be afraid.

Just like the same old same old to be free to make choicees,
to be brave to fight and fail,
to be naive to please and culture yourself

Lots of dreams and time and chances there.........

StArT ovER

Damn it.

I hate that. I just hate that.
就碎吧碎吧

沒關係沒關係沒關係沒關係

繼續調整就是食譜的道理

slEEP

i just want to fall asleep.

i just want to release all the tension.




i am not so sure about the love and the world, even myself.

It could be go wrong.

is the ice melting or breaking

where am i standing in the freezing wind






Watching you sleep for so long
Knowing that I can't turn the rain into sun anymore
I've given you all that I am
Now I stand here too scared to hold your hand
Afraid you might wake to see
The monster that had to leave

Cause you see the shelter as the storm
Holding wind to keep you warm
You were everything to me
This is why I have to leave
So sleep well my angel

Under the ash and the lies
Something beautiful once here now dies
And the tears burn my eyes
As you sit there all alone
I just wanna come home

But you see the shelter as the storm
Holding wind to keep you warm
You were everything to me
This is why I have to leave
So sleep well my angel
Sleep well my angel

I'm sorry
I'm sorry
I'm sorry
I'm sorry

You see the shelter as the storm
Holding wind to keep you warm
You were everything to me
This is why
You see the shelter as the storm
Holding wind to keep you warm
You were everything to me
This is why I have to leave
So sleep well my angel
Sleep well my angel

SoMeWheRE

Lost in the darkness, hoping for a sign
Instead there is only silence
Can't you hear my screams
Never stop hoping
Need to know where you are
But one thing is for sure
You're always in my heart

I'll find you somewhere
I'll keep on trying until my dying day
I just need to know whatever has happened
The Truth will free my soul

Lost in the darkness try to find your way home
I want to embrace you and never let you go
Almost hope you're in heaven so no one can hurt your soul
Living in agony 'cause I just do not know
Where you are

I'll find you somewhere
I'll keep on trying until my dying day
I just need to know whatever has happened
The Truth will free my soul

Wherever you are I won't stop searching.
Whatever it takes I need to know

I'll find you somewhere
I'll keep on trying until my dying day
I just need to know whatever has happened
The Truth will free my soul

enOugH

im not sure i am good to go.

this is just how i feel.

am i, the one i thought i were, gone?

own nothing, because i really cant own one thing long enough

be owned by no one, because i am aware of that when i built up the ego.

for now

i am just so lost i've ever been.

iNSTRuctiOn

86.
Own nothing, and be owned by no one.
---a cat's little instruction

DrEAM

變了

不喜歡這種變化

好想離開

難道幻想也如此奢侈難求

你說

你會陪我到海靜止的那時候

不是麼

sOrTir

心中

似乎缺了什麼

暴露了殘缺的脆弱

很想

再次   出走   

VuLneraBLE

i think the hardest thing for me is to admit that i am vulnerable.
Maybe that's the reason for loving Xtina.

i have made no progress on those defects for these years.
Nothing gets better but worse, i think.



i need a quiet travel.