If it is getting worse,
There must come out some new unknown ways.
No need to hide,
No need to be afraid.
Just like the same old same old to be free to make choicees,
to be brave to fight and fail,
to be naive to please and culture yourself
Lots of dreams and time and chances there.........
i just want to fall asleep.
i just want to release all the tension.
i am not so sure about the love and the world, even myself.
It could be go wrong.
is the ice melting or breaking
where am i standing in the freezing wind
Watching you sleep for so long
Knowing that I can't turn the rain into sun anymore
I've given you all that I am
Now I stand here too scared to hold your hand
Afraid you might wake to see
The monster that had to leave
Cause you see the shelter as the storm
Holding wind to keep you warm
You were everything to me
This is why I have to leave
So sleep well my angel
Under the ash and the lies
Something beautiful once here now dies
And the tears burn my eyes
As you sit there all alone
I just wanna come home
But you see the shelter as the storm
Holding wind to keep you warm
You were everything to me
This is why I have to leave
So sleep well my angel
Sleep well my angel
I'm sorry
I'm sorry
I'm sorry
I'm sorry
You see the shelter as the storm
Holding wind to keep you warm
You were everything to me
This is why
You see the shelter as the storm
Holding wind to keep you warm
You were everything to me
This is why I have to leave
So sleep well my angel
Sleep well my angel
Lost in the darkness, hoping for a sign
Instead there is only silence
Can't you hear my screams
Never stop hoping
Need to know where you are
But one thing is for sure
You're always in my heart
I'll find you somewhere
I'll keep on trying until my dying day
I just need to know whatever has happened
The Truth will free my soul
Lost in the darkness try to find your way home
I want to embrace you and never let you go
Almost hope you're in heaven so no one can hurt your soul
Living in agony 'cause I just do not know
Where you are
I'll find you somewhere
I'll keep on trying until my dying day
I just need to know whatever has happened
The Truth will free my soul
Wherever you are I won't stop searching.
Whatever it takes I need to know
I'll find you somewhere
I'll keep on trying until my dying day
I just need to know whatever has happened
The Truth will free my soul
im not sure i am good to go.
this is just how i feel.
am i, the one i thought i were, gone?
own nothing, because i really cant own one thing long enough
be owned by no one, because i am aware of that when i built up the ego.
for now
i am just so lost i've ever been.
i think the hardest thing for me is to admit that i am vulnerable.
Maybe that's the reason for loving Xtina.
i have made no progress on those defects for these years.
Nothing gets better but worse, i think.
i need a quiet travel.
this wedding is good because they seem happy. if they have not had a fight for almost 6 years (from the day they met each other), i admit frankly that i do admire the relationship and so happy to know that it's still possible in reality. honestly, it is my first time that i am filled with all my best blessing to the bride and groom on the weddings of my friends.
This is the first time i get up so early on Sunday. I have a breakfast date with my friend who is going to work in Japan. I am always learning somethings from different contact with my friends.
能的話
if love can be transformed or decorated
if life cab be reset or pieced together
if sorrow can be transparent or mutated
if i can get rid of all of them...
I think that we need to believe in ourselves more often and confirmedly, no matter how old we are.
I think i am interested in certain things and maybe i should have be more confident of myself and try to make decisions according to my interests, not my ability. We are always asking ourselves that "could we make it?", but "is that what we want?". We might not know how far we can go but we probably can know are we happy when doing something. I still believe that "interest leads every effort", and in the silent way we are going to be sort of good at certain things because of our interests, even though we are not aware of that.
The true bravery might be to be able to take failure.
