LOST

That feeling has gone.

died out.

i am seriously lost this time. I have to get myself back.
that's is the problem. i have to get myself back.

I can't remember days.
I can't remember voices.
I am totally, throughly, completely lost in the time flood.

i hate it that i have to admit i have changed again. I have been saying this all my life and now even i am here, where i tried to escape to, i am still ridiculously the same.

I am stuck.

the colour, the smell, the everything.
can i mend it? or should i leave? part of my mind knows that i need something.

the challenging, the achievement, the independence.....