Uk

隨著時間

心裡有時也開始萌生乾脆去英國的時候不要找正職(雖然也不是說我想找就找得到)

來真的打工渡假的念頭

只是不管最後是甚麼

多少還是憂慮著

自己是不是太奢侈了

老媽某方面真的很了解我啊

noT eNOUGh

不知道




看著別人的驚歎號

自己卻只能盯著大問號

如果配著隨遇而安  容易滿足  不會想東想西的腦袋瓜就算了

偏偏

很愛想

很愛考自己

很天真

但又還不夠爛漫





真不知道

voCAbulaRY

hu~ we had lots of vocabulary this time. finally i have done it!

vocabulary:

• ubiquitous
• identify:
  Which person in the photos do you identify most closely with?
• adjectives to describe personality:
• ambitious
• anti-social  < >  sociable
• altruistic  < >  self-centred
• courageous  < >  timid
• balanced  < >  obsessive
• easy-going  < >  highly-strung
• phantom
• illusion: something that is not really what it seems to be
• compelling: get your attention
  This illusion is extraordinarily compelling the first time you encounter it.
• striking: attracting a lot of attention
  There is a very striking illusion in which you can feel a rubber hand being touched as if it were your own.
• conceal: to precent something from being seen or known
  i tried to conceal my surprise when she told me her age.
• uncanny: strange or mysterious
  you will have an uncanny feeling that you are actually being stroked on the fake hand.
• sensation: a general feeling caused by something that happens to you
  the  sensations you feel will seem to emerge directly from the plastic.
• discrepancy: difference
  they believe this illusion is strong enough to overcome the discrepancy between the position of your real hand that you can feel and the site of the plastic hand you can see. 
• twist: the change information so that it gives the message you want it to give
  You're twisting my words - that's not what i said at all.
• resemble: to look like or be like someone or something
  The object your helper touches doesn't even need to resemble your hand.
• acquaintance: a person that you have met but do not know well
  this time get your acquaintance to rub and tap the surface if in from of you.
• matching: having the same colour or pattern as something else
  a green dress with matching green handbag
• extraordinarily: very, more than usual
  this illusion is extraordinarily compelling the first time you encountered it.
• blow: a hard hit with a hand or a weapon
  if you threaten the table by aiming a blow at it, the person winces. 
• wince: to show pain suddenly and for a short time in the face, often moving the head back at the same time
• perspiration: sweat
• incorporate: to include something as part of something larger
  It is as if the table becomes incorporated into a person's own body image.
• perceive: to come to an opinion about something
  the subject perceives a threat to the table as to themselves.
• perception: a belief or opinion
  we have to change the public;s perception that money is being waisted.
• limbs
• intact: complete and in the original state
  put their intact arm on the reflective side
• cramp: a sudden painful tightening in a muscle
• likelihood: the chance that something will happen
  what is the likelihood that what i see and what i feel could be identical simply by chance?
• intellect: the ability to understand and to thing in an intelligent way
  our intellect cannot override.
• inanimate: having none of the characteristics of life
  even a lifetime of experience that an inanimate object is not part of your body is abandoned in light of the perception that it is. 
• premise: an idea or theory
  one premise that seems to be beyond question is that you are anchored in your body.
• anchor: to make something or someone stay in one position by fastening them firmly
• forsaken: to leave someone forever
  this obvious fact is temporarily forsaken.

SomEwHeRe

Lost in the darkness
Hoping for a sign
Instead there's only silence
Can't you hear my screams?

Never stop hoping
Need to know where you are
Cause one thing's for sure
You're always in my heart

I'll find you somewhere
I'll keep on trying
Until my dying day
I just need to know
Whatever has happened
The truth will free my soul

Lost in the darkness
Tried to find your way home
I want to embrace you
And never let you go

Almost hope you're in heaven
So no one can hurt your soul
Living in agony
Cause I just do not know
Where you are

I'll find you somewhere
I'll keep on trying
Until my dying day
I just need to know
Whatever has happened
The truth will free my soul

Wherever you are
I won't stop searching
Whatever it takes me to know

開始吧

轉眼就十月中了，該開始認真準備出門的事。之前自己猶豫徬徨的心情也大致調整了，家人的態度也慢慢地軟化和接受，這些都花了不少時間，但是能從內從外都有更明確的支持，這還是很值得的。現在，就是挑戰自己準備的能力和克服自己內心面對未知的不安吧!

這次出門，最希望可以在當地找到收入不錯的正職或是時間夠長的簽約工作，倒也不是期待能未來都在那邊工作，只是希望當地的收入能滿足當地的支出罷了。最完美的情況是一份同產業類型的工作(例如軟體工程師)，這樣就還能體驗不同文化的工作，還不用太擔憂回來後有工作斷層的問題，果真如此就真是實現我心中的夢想啦！

不過，凡事要做最壞的打算。找不到正職，當然就來找打工吧！其實這不算是最壞的選擇，只是透過很不一樣的經歷來補貼生活的錢。這時候的重點應該就會是擴增視野，藉由不同的嘗試探索不同的自己。當然，運氣好的話，希望是一份有趣且值得學習的工作嚕！

那最壞的打算是甚麼？應該就是賺不到錢，沒有工作吧！這意味著我更要謹慎管理能運用的資源，好讓自己還是能好好體驗國外生活。相對的，空閒的時間應該不少，便能盡可能的利用深度旅行來探索自己和這個世界。

其實這三種計畫應該沒有甚麼好壞之分，說不定最後收穫最少的是我本來以為最完美的選擇也不一定。只想告訴自己，妥當的準備自己在好的心態下出發，過程平安最重要，至於其他的部分，就隨興而致吧！既然都選擇出門了，就努力創造未來吧！

題外話，雖然深知待在國外一段時間，英文也不一定能顯著進步，但還是要強迫自己在這方面努力，期許可以達成自己的目標吧！

stOp

can time stop ?

leAVe

那種焦躁

那種心情

我什麼時候可以擺脫掉呢