conFUSEd
everyday is a bit confusing.
7 years ago
20150609
20150529
neVER stOp
the fairest thing in this world probably is that everyone has the same amount of time a day -- 24 hrs.
i know that how much time and efforts you put into something and how close you will be close to it.
this May, i am 32. i can really feel the time flies.
everyone has its own destiny but that's not the point. It doesn't matter how others are. it is what i am that matters.
i've spent more than 7 years being an software developer.
i've spent almost 2 years living in a foreign country and seeking new findings of myself.
this is my own life. it is me who's responsible for it, not others. don't blame on other people or things or environment. if my life has not changed that's because you dont let it change. just do it, even if every step is tiny and it seems no time for big changes. it really doesn't matter. keep seeking and never stop.
20150520
rAiny DAy
probably the first time i've ever enjoyed a rainy day so much
it's brought the intolerably high temperature down dramatically that i feel cool and calm immediately once i walked out from home.
today's heavy rain just makes everything greener, cooler and more comfortable.
suRRouNDingS
that's why everyone needs some time to be alone.
without any interruption.
without any distraction.
only feel the existence of oneself and the surroundings.
i feel much better now
20150511
pUT iT inTO peRSpeCTIve
keep telling myself that
everyone is different since the world needs diversity
but to calm all my thoughts down is another story
this unique trip's changed me quite a lot in a way
even though i didn't realise it until i came back
he said...
coming home puts it into perspective.
it can't be more correct and precise.
I found myself starting to digest all i've received in the trip when coming back home.
I probably should've noted down every thought's transition.
appreciate home but not used to it.
bring those new habits back home.
regain self-confidence from mastering the language
get annoyed by people who are not satisfied with their salary which is already beyond average.
get pissed off by people who just care about money
get pretty upset by people who ride or drive on pavements.
start to give deep thoughts about that every job has its own unique value and is equally noble.
start to appreciate all different works around the world
feel happy when simply watching birds fly around or plants grow into their own beauty
quickly find out myself spending money much more then i was in the trip and feel a bit guilty
still enjoy listening all sorts of accents
start to get less annoyed by people who care little about others
feel sorry about generally long working hours in taiwan
feel embarrassed when finding myself or others treating families impolitely
first time ever really think i shouldn't go to see the doctor because there are some other people who need the medical service more then me
appreciate the time being together with my family even more
get confused about my future
get confused about my career
get confused about what i really want
get confused about what on earth is important to me
keep being confused with my own life
dislike news even more so
feel lost
want a long time to be alone
feel powerless of myself
want to do more
want to get on the trip and take the challenge to see how far i can go again
.......
coming home puts it into perspective.....and it is still changing and fermenting....
we'll see.
20150228
HumANiTy
所謂家家有本難念的經
然後通常最難唸的經就是自己手上那一本
要讀通很難
要看到能夠改進的點又更難
我想
對每個人來說了解人性是一個很重要的課題
只有在能裡解人性之後
才能好好觀察自己
修復自己
我祈禱身邊的人和我自己都可以快樂度過自己想要過的人生
20150223
StavE oFF
獨處真的很重要
難怪人常需要自己的房間，自己的房子，自己的空間
好啦
至少我需要
原來
打擾不光只是實質上的中斷或干擾
也包含存在
發現很少自己發呆思考的時間
不再只是一個人的存在
而是很多不一樣的存在交會錯雜
短暫的空白變多
長時的空白變少
這種時候習慣就很重要
20150112
20150103
eMergenCy CalLS
- off you go
- have come along to V...
- What are you up to?
- He's fallen over.
- where does it hurt?
- It really hurts.
- ambulance
- we'd better get ...
- X-ray unit
- are you lost?
- paramedics
- emergency calls
- out of taxation
- a huge range of emergencies
- asthma
- trauma like in road traffic collisions
- it is packed with ....
- upwards of 8 to 12 a day
- it's a time-critical job.
- trauma unit
- on-scene
- a compact version
- someone's in cardiac arrest
- cumbersome
- sirens wailing
- as fast as you can / as quickly as possible
20150102
ResOluTIOnS
Since it's a just a start of 2015, i'd better grab this opportunity to encourage myself to get started whatever i've wanted to do.
first of all, less facebook. before I went to England, I didn't use facebook often. However, having been away from my own country, facebook has then become a reasonable place that i can get the "local" information from. I knew some big social news or elections in tw from facebook, instead of "news" websites. I learnt that some friends stepped into their marriages or new born baby's caring centres. I've got used to spend more time reading on facebook, which I do find it rather annoying. Now since I'm back, it's time to get rid of it and it should be easier, i hope!
the second thing I am hoping I can make it is that I can keep practising my english. This is much harder and requires more determination to turn it into a habit. The major target is still the speaking. I quite miss the last two months i was in England. I am glad that I didn't go travelling around the UK which was one of my option that how I fancied to do with my last two months there. I've decided to live with my own willings. no distraction, no excuse. And, it'd turned out one of my most wonderful period of time in my life. That's all because I really lived based on how I wanted it. I hope I can make that kind of life style not just a one-time experience but all the time. Managing my time keeping learning english is the first step and a part of it!
the rest of it is mainly to do with my job, such as looking for a job and working on some personal projects i'm interested in.
20141217
BlaNk
it's been almost a month since i came back to taiwan. I haven't started to find a new job, because i was planning to give myself a bit of time to think about myself and the future. However, I even haven't started yet.
my mind has been preoccupied by the little alien, my nephew, who's been staying with us in daytime on weekdays. Although it's mainly my mum taking care of him, I am still affected all the time. It's not only because the existence of the little alien, but also the way my mum caring him distracts me a lot. Furthermore, my granny just had a serious fall recently that inevitably requires more of my helps.
I think I've been lost a bit. I haven't really allowed my mind stopped being occupied the reality, such as Ingress, caring, being held of the worries of money, etc. Hence, I've got to sort it out!
20141209
20141104
puT Our FEet uP
Source:
http://learnenglish.britishcouncil.org/en/word-street/snowdon
vocabulary & phrase:
- put our feet up
- speak for yourself
- can i just get you to fill this in, please?
- leaflet
- get changed
- i'm all set to go.
- go on / get going
- manicure / pedicure
- volcanic / volcano
- goes all the way
- locomotive
- how long does it take to get to the top?
- how high is it?
- what are you having?
- get stuck
- make a move
- give you a lift
- what happens.....
- white-water rafting
- thrill seeker
- adrenalin junky
- foaming water
- afloat
- thrills and spills
- railings
Language Focus:
- You're joking, aren't you? ( intonation: up, meaning: asking a question)
- It's lovely, isn't it? (intonation: down, not asking a question)
- we'll speak to you soon, won't we?
- you don't cycle, do you?
20141021
cAmDen
source:
http://learnenglish.britishcouncil.org/en/word-street/camden
vocabulary:
- candle holder
- split up
- i'll meet you back here in one hour.
- that should do it.
- What type of thing does she like?
- What do you think of that?
- how about I meet you halfway – 25?
- how did you get on?
- end up buying / end up wearing
- I'll tell you what we'll do.
- we'll call it quits.
- lunch is on me.
- stall
- is best known for...
- spiky
- torn
- safety pin
- stand out
- start out
- on the catwalks
- come up with (sth)
- imaginative
- futuristic
- baggy
- varied stuff
- I'm really into that.
- (sth) remind (sb) of (sth)
Language focus:
- How are you doing? (how're ya doing) / How are you? / How's it going?
- When I meet someone for the first time, I'll say 'nice to meet you'. (instead of "how do you do?")
- what time do you start work?
- can i try these on, please? / can i try them on?
- can i have them in a size 6? / have you got them in medium?
- have you got them in another colour? / have you got them in blue?
20140831
異世界
或許
重點跟不在旅行
不是玩
不是去哪裡
而是找個小小安靜的異世界
那裡沒有時間
沒有現實
沒有感覺
海風
浪
滿天的星星
大家都說我去玩
大家都說羨慕我出去玩這麼久
我沒有在玩
我只是想找個小小安靜的異世界
20140816
beLoved star
every time i think about it i feel sad
i will be there always
and do my best to be whatever you need
we will still go wherever we would like to
i hope everything turns into good
i hope you don't feel too bad along the road
20140810
thAT dAY...
如果可以無限的出走
一直逃離現實
閃躲所有攻擊
那該有多好
今天這個天氣
突然讓我想起了那天
臨時請了假就出走去一點也不美也不晴天的海邊
我早就忘記是哪個海邊了
但是我記得天氣
陰雨綿綿
但是我就是需要出去 需要海邊
我記得我等車就等了好久好久
我記得還下雨
鞋子外套都淋濕了
今天也是下雨
冷冽的風刺骨吹進站
好像那天
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