suRRouNDingS

that's why everyone needs some time to be alone.



without any interruption.
without any distraction.
only feel the existence of oneself and the surroundings.

i feel much better now

pUT iT inTO peRSpeCTIve

keep telling myself that 

everyone is different since the world needs diversity 

but to calm all my thoughts down is another story 

this unique trip's changed me quite a lot in a way 

even though i didn't realise it until i came back

he said...

coming home puts it into perspective.

it can't be more correct and precise. 

I found myself starting to digest all i've received in the trip when coming back home. 

I probably should've noted down every thought's transition. 

appreciate home but not used to it. 

bring those new habits back home.

regain self-confidence from mastering the language

get annoyed by people who are not satisfied with their salary which is already beyond average. 

get pissed off by people who just care about money

get pretty upset by people who ride or drive on pavements. 

start to give deep thoughts about that every job has its own unique value and is equally noble. 

start to appreciate all different works around the world 

feel happy when simply watching birds fly around or plants grow into their own beauty

quickly find out myself spending money much more then i was in the trip and feel a bit guilty

still enjoy listening all sorts of accents 

start to get less annoyed by people who care little about others

feel sorry about generally long working hours in taiwan

feel embarrassed when finding myself or others treating families impolitely 

first time ever really think i shouldn't go to see the doctor because there are some other people who need the medical service more then me

appreciate the time being together with my family even more  

get confused about my future 

get confused about my career

get confused about what i really want

get confused about what on earth is important to me 

keep being confused with my own life 

dislike news even more so

feel lost 

want a long time to be alone 

feel powerless of myself

want to do more 

want to get on the trip and take the challenge to see how far i can go again

.......

coming home puts it into perspective.....and it is still changing and fermenting....

we'll see. 

HumANiTy

所謂家家有本難念的經

然後通常最難唸的經就是自己手上那一本

要讀通很難

要看到能夠改進的點又更難




我想

對每個人來說了解人性是一個很重要的課題

只有在能裡解人性之後

才能好好觀察自己

修復自己




我祈禱身邊的人和我自己都可以快樂度過自己想要過的人生

StavE oFF

獨處真的很重要

難怪人常需要自己的房間，自己的房子，自己的空間

好啦

至少我需要

原來

打擾不光只是實質上的中斷或干擾

也包含存在

發現很少自己發呆思考的時間

不再只是一個人的存在

而是很多不一樣的存在交會錯雜

短暫的空白變多

長時的空白變少

這種時候習慣就很重要

j0B

又是彷徨找工作的時候

知道自己要什麼的人真好/_\

eMergenCy CalLS

• off you go 
• have come along to V...
• What are you up to?
• He's fallen over.
• where does it hurt?
• It really hurts. 
• ambulance
• we'd better get ...
• X-ray unit
• are you lost?
• paramedics
• emergency calls
• out of taxation
• a huge range of emergencies
• asthma
• trauma like in road traffic collisions
• it is packed with ....
• upwards of 8 to 12 a day
• it's a time-critical job.
• trauma unit
• on-scene
• a compact version
• someone's in cardiac arrest
• cumbersome 
• sirens wailing
• as fast as you can / as quickly as possible 

ResOluTIOnS

Since it's a just a start of 2015, i'd better grab this opportunity to encourage myself to get started whatever i've wanted to do.

first of all, less facebook. before I went to England, I didn't use facebook often. However, having been away from my own country, facebook has then become a reasonable place that i can get the "local" information from. I knew some big social news or elections in tw from facebook, instead of "news" websites. I learnt that some friends stepped into their marriages or new born baby's caring centres. I've got used to spend more time reading on facebook, which I do find it rather annoying. Now since I'm back, it's time to get rid of it and it should be easier, i hope!

the second thing I am hoping I can make it is that I can keep practising my english. This is much harder and requires more determination to turn it into a habit. The major target is still the speaking. I quite miss the last two months i was in England. I am glad that I didn't go travelling around the UK which was one of my option that how I fancied to do with my last two months there. I've decided to live with my own willings. no distraction, no excuse. And, it'd turned out one of my most wonderful period of time in my life. That's all because I really lived based on how I wanted it. I hope I can make that kind of life style not just a one-time experience but all the time. Managing my time keeping learning english is the first step and a part of it!

the rest of it is mainly to do with my job, such as looking for a job and working on some personal projects i'm interested in.

BlaNk

it's been almost a month since i came back to taiwan. I haven't started to find a new job, because i was planning to give myself a bit of time to think about myself and the future. However, I even haven't started yet. 

my mind has been preoccupied by the little alien, my nephew, who's been staying with us in daytime on weekdays. Although it's mainly my mum taking care of him, I am still affected all the time. It's not only because the existence of the little alien, but also the way my mum caring him distracts me a lot. Furthermore, my granny just had a serious fall recently that inevitably requires more of my helps. 

I think I've been lost a bit. I haven't really allowed my mind stopped being occupied the reality, such as Ingress, caring, being held of the worries of money, etc. Hence, I've got to sort it out!

智障

撕裂

可以成為愛嗎

puT Our FEet uP

Source:
http://learnenglish.britishcouncil.org/en/word-street/snowdon

vocabulary & phrase:

• put our feet up
• speak for yourself
• can i just get you to fill this in, please?
• leaflet
• get changed
• i'm all set to go.
• go on / get going
• manicure / pedicure
• volcanic / volcano
• goes all the way 
• locomotive
• how long does it take to get to the top?
• how high is it?
• what are you having?
• get stuck
• make a move
• give you a lift
• what happens.....
• white-water rafting
• thrill seeker
• adrenalin junky
• foaming water
• afloat
• thrills and spills
• railings

Language Focus:

• You're joking, aren't you? ( intonation: up, meaning: asking a question)
• It's lovely, isn't it? (intonation: down, not asking a question)
• we'll speak to you soon, won't we? 
• you don't cycle, do you?

cAmDen

source: 
http://learnenglish.britishcouncil.org/en/word-street/camden

vocabulary:

• candle holder 
• split up
• i'll meet you back here in one hour.
• that should do it.
• What type of thing does she like?
• What do you think of that?
• how about I meet you halfway – 25?
• how did you get on?
• end up buying / end up wearing
• I'll tell you what we'll do.
• we'll call it quits.
• lunch is on me.
• stall
• is best known for...
• spiky
• torn
• safety pin
• stand out
• start out 
• on the catwalks
• come up with (sth)
• imaginative
• futuristic
• baggy
• varied stuff
• I'm really into that.
• (sth) remind (sb) of (sth)

Language focus:

• How are you doing? (how're ya doing) / How are you? / How's it going?
• When I meet someone for the first time, I'll say 'nice to meet you'. (instead of "how do you do?")
• what time do you start work?
• can i try these on, please?  / can i try them on?
• can i have them in a size 6? / have you got them in medium?
• have you got them in another colour? / have you got them in blue?

異世界

或許

重點跟不在旅行

不是玩

不是去哪裡

而是找個小小安靜的異世界

那裡沒有時間

沒有現實

沒有感覺

海風

浪

滿天的星星

大家都說我去玩

大家都說羨慕我出去玩這麼久

我沒有在玩

我只是想找個小小安靜的異世界

SamE sAmE

其實不管你躲到哪個角落

都
一
樣

beLoved star

every time i think about it i feel sad

i will be there always

and do my best to be whatever you need

we will still go wherever we would like to 

i hope everything turns into good 

i hope you don't feel too bad along the road 

 

哪裡？

年紀到了

就有好多有的沒的事情如雨後春筍的冒出來

最近很不寧靜

自己的心情

掛念

依舊還是茫茫然

一瞬間冒了很多事情

好想現在就收收書包搭飛機去哪裡

但是去哪裡？

嘖嘖

thAT dAY...

如果可以無限的出走

一直逃離現實

閃躲所有攻擊

那該有多好

今天這個天氣

突然讓我想起了那天

臨時請了假就出走去一點也不美也不晴天的海邊

我早就忘記是哪個海邊了

但是我記得天氣

陰雨綿綿

但是我就是需要出去    需要海邊

我記得我等車就等了好久好久

我記得還下雨

鞋子外套都淋濕了

今天也是下雨

冷冽的風刺骨吹進站

好像那天

dANgeROUs

看了一些文章，再加上一點反思，突然有個想法：我們所謂的精英教育少了重要的一味--冒險精神。

當然，如果冒險精神用在壞人身上，那就糟糕了，不過我想那是另外一個話題，和“需要冒險精神”這件事不衝突。

自己來的這一趟，自我感覺最良好的時候莫過於是我在倫敦打混摸魚的日子，雖然老是再換住宿，東晃西晃給履歷，斤斤計較著今天還剩多少錢可以吃飯，面試屢屢挫敗......等等，但是，內心反是充足和感恩的。那時候和一位義大利室友聊天，就有聊到這點，彼此都這麼覺得，內心欠缺的其實是自我認同，來到這裡，挑戰了自己選擇的挑戰，這才獲得了一種充實！

一切的旅程都需要個開始，而冒險精神就是促使人們展開旅程的推手。

最近面臨要回家的選擇，腦中又浮現出當初出走時的一些困擾，不知道自己未來的路想怎麼走。就算有點什麼小想法，又覺得太冒險，忍不住問自己真的承擔得起風險嗎？

也許我一直站在“在這方面想太多”的一邊吧！

wAys 2 LeaRN

i have been working on web site development since last Aug. Apart from PHP, which is what i am familiar with, i 've started to learn more about JS/CSS/HTML because there is no dedicated front-end developer (FED) available in my office. Of course don't even mention the UI designer.

to be honest, i am sure that my js code must be very messy in the professional eyes. JS is so different from the language i've learnt so far. basically the learning process is :
a. wondering if i can do it
b. looking it up on google
c. try and error
d. repeat step b and c until the task has done, or give it up and try to think of other possible solutions and re-start from step a

this kind of learning process is fine and rather commonly seen in RD's life. however, lacking of systematical learning procedure is also dangerous, at least to my feeling (ha XD). same situation applies to the way i learn CSS, but the result probably even worse.

all the frustration caused by JS/CSS remind me that i really need a time to learn them step by step. i hope at least after this job, i won't feel hesitant to say i know JS. (as to css...hmmmmmm....let it be bah~~~~lalalalala. )


p.s. 1. however, deep in my mind, i am not really happy with being away from JAVA for such a long time. i have to find another way to get there!

p.s. 2. several topics queuing now:
Android, security programming practices for web development, unit test and refactoring, Python

Tortoise merge

SVN Tortoise

syncing from Trunk to Branch :

1. start from the branch working copy  folder
2. right click Merge > Merge a range of revisions > Next
3. set the field of URL from as the Trunk
4. set the revision to merge > Next
5. clerk Test merge to preview
6. Merge!

ruN

時間跑得很快
轉眼我來英國也一年多了

錯過了老爸老媽的生日就要第二輪啦
猶豫好久的大抉擇
應該就是回家了

不過看到有個文章讓我不禁在駐足了一下：
大多數的人在考慮要不要離職的時候，幾乎都是因為「我不滿意我現在的狀況」，但其中只有很少數人有考慮到「我想要往什麼目標去」。只有你的目標是清楚的，你才不會在該選擇的時候走錯路。所以如果你在考慮要不要離職，最重要應該思考的，應該是「你到底在追求什麼？」以及「現在你和目標之間的落差，是不是離職可以解決的？」

這次之所以這麼難下決定，其實到頭來就是我還不清楚自己的目標是什麼。
幸福的人生。生命現下過得好快。總是沒有暫停鍵，當然也沒有什麼重玩就是了。有時候剩下的就只是“想要“。萬事起頭難，我也不想換工作，每換一次工作都是精神耗損。挑戰，透過這次旅行，回頭看，遙遠的過去也隱隱佐證發揮我能力的環境就是很困難和挑戰。我總愛抱怨，碎碎念卻道也繼續嘗試。我想這就是個性吧。我喜歡嘗試不同的東西，我想體驗一些有的沒得的經驗，也許這就是為什麼我開始旅行吧！
目標，其實倒也不是真的一定要變得多厲害，畢竟很多事情就是等價交換，不用去羨慕。我想我的目標也許不是真的變得多有錢，能力多厲害，職位有多令人敬佩，能和好朋友聚會，分享苦樂，陪伴家人，適合自己的工作環境和薪水，簡單快樂ㄉ健康平安就好。

沒有雄心大志？這就隨意吧。

也許這次的大抉擇，是個點醒我的事件。我，想念旅行。我想念的其實不是路上的風景，是那時候的自己！